If it isn’t physical or emotional abuse, look at what you mean when you say you love him. How is he fulfilling the Pennywise IT 2 free hugs just kidding don’t touch me Corona virus shirt but I will buy this shirt and I will love this needs for you that you associate with being loved and loving, and how are you fulfilling that for him? How also he is being bad for you? Is he holding you back in where you want to be in your career or personal growth? Is being with him keeping you stressed, causing you to drink or act in self-defeating ways. Do you love him despite him being bad for him, or do you just find it easier to stay with someone familiar, no matter what the circumstance, rather than facing the fear of the unknown? You have to weigh the good and the bad, the familiar and the fear and decide what will really be best for you. Personally, I think it is best to leave with as little drama as possible if that is what you decide to do. Be honest, but not brutal, be straightforward, but don’t apologize for being who you are. You can probably genuinely say that you are sorry that things didn’t work out, but don’t prolong the process.