Now I am finally recovered, I’d love to be working or to start a business with my craft, but I’d need to rent a shop or buy a shed to work in and that requires money. I have been trying to save, but despite my frugal lifestyle have not saved a penny yet. I’m still usually down to zero by the Witch assuming I’m just an old lady ứa your first mistake halloween shirt What’s more,I will buy this end of each month. But hey ho, at least I do have a roof over my head and I’m happy and healthy and I have the love of my children and grandchildren who are around. That’s all I’ve ever really wanted and it’s enough. Children love their parents unconditionally and are wired to attach to them because their survival is totally dependent upon their parents. This provides the parent with power, control, adoration and admiration, validation, attention and servitude! They can behave without restraint and there is no accountability. Their children cannot leave and will still love them and perceive them as omnipotent! They control every aspect of their children’s lives. No one gets past them to influence, enlighten, support, comfort. indulge, advise or bond with their child. They won’t allow it! They are the sole force in their children’s lives. Having children ensures that their spouses will stay at least until the children are older or the narcissist decides to discard them. It also places them in a virtuous role/position. People admire families, especially those who appear ‘close’. Narcissists are masters at creating appearances. Publicly they get a lot of attention from strangers as well as acquaintances. People compliment what great parents and adorable kids they are. At home the child emotional needs, opinions, requests, preferences and interests are completely disregarded especially when they conflict with their narcissistic parents agenda. Narcissists don’t feel so much as a twinge of guilt in denying their children something of great importance to the child. They are only thinking of what they want and what is best for themselves. Their whole image as a parent and constant flow of narcissistic supply as well as their children’s devotion , admiration, loyalty, and obedience causes them to believe that they love and adore their children. In reality their children are tools. Their hyper focus and vigilant, ‘care’ of their children could be compared to a genie in a lamp…as long as the genie keeps granting your wishes, you are going to take damn good care of that lamp! No one is going to get their hands on your lamp and get benefits from it!